Friday, December 22, 2006

CRAP ON A STICK

Pee stick, that is.

While yesterday's test may have been broken, it certainly wasn't wrong. This morning's super duper expensive shmensive test (while exhibiting that the plastic is indeed higher in quality, and the design undoubtedly more ergonomic,) showed the same thing. The fat lady has sung. (Insert photo of me singing here.)

To celebrate this occasion I was thinking of throwing a company holiday party (which I previously hadn't planned.) For those of you without the memory of an elephant I will remind you that I run my own business. And I am my only employee. Spouses will not be invited - I don't have a big budget. And it will be so much fun because I have a theme: Pity.

Maybe I will invite somebody else. I need someone who will feel bad for me. No one ever does, they just think that I can manage everything all by myself. I don't know how I can handle this alone...

My clinic re-opens on January 8th. At which time I will be around the middle of my next cycle. I recon I wll get my script for BCPs then, which will mean I will start my next treatment cycle by the begining of February. On top of this 2ww I now have another 4-5ww. It's just shitty, man. (And unfortunately you gals know just how much.)

Thank you so much for your empathetic optimism yesterday. Having you by my side really helps.

18 comments:

Karen said...

Really, really crappy. I'm sorry. :(

Why would you be getting a script for BCPs in January? Are you skipping straight to an IVF cycle? I thought you were going to try IUI first. (IUI doesn't generally start with BCPs, unlike IVF, which usually does)

Heather said...

I'll come to the party.

aah0424 said...

I would come to your party if I was closer. I love pity parties!

I'm sorry.

sariel & shlomit said...

i'm already at the party with you girl.
that soooooo sucks. so. so. so.
i don't really know what to say. i have been there and felt that agony...it will get better. and now you know that drugs can help you ovulate so that's a good thing.
i really hope we can connect over the holidays and have a real pity party. more so, i look forward to the day we can have a celebration.
peace
shlomit

flygirl said...

I'm sorry Ms. C. That's very disappointing.

Watson said...

Ms. C,

I am so sorry - I was hoping you would get good news.

Please take care, and know that we're out here sending you good thoughts!

xoxo

My Reality said...

I will throw you your very own pity party when you are in my neck of the woods next week. Let me know when you will be here so I can put it on the calendar.

I am sorry you got crappy news. I was hoping for different results.

Nilla said...

Sorry to hear this, Ms. C. A negative always sucks, no mattter your chances or odds or anything else.

Are you going to do an IUI next, or try IVF? In any case, I hope that January and February arrive quickly for you! (and me too -- my third FET cycle is in January!)

I'll come to the pity party any time! ;)

Take care.
xx
Nilla

Lut C. said...

How disappointing! I hear you on the waiting.

mandolyn said...

I'm truly sorry, C. Crap.

lunarmagic said...

I'm so sorry. :( I'm right there with you. Although your clinic being closed until Jan 8th makes it even worse.

The Town Criers said...

I'm so sorry, C. That really sucks--both the negative and then the wait.

Thalia said...

Oh sweetie I am sorry. And the wait is so hard. But it is better for your body not to rush into another cycle. And it can be restful not to be worrying about ttc for a while. But it hurts, I know.

Nico said...

I'm so sorry about the BFN. Totally sucks. Especially this time of year. As does the wait until the next cycle. Been there, done that. Sucks. I'm sorry!

decemberbaby said...

I'll come to your pity party. And I'll bring booze.

Heather said...

Happy Belated Birthday!!!

TeamWinks said...

Damn. I'm all for the pity party. Count me in.

lucky #2 said...

So sorry. The lovely thing of the internet sisterhood is that we ALL get it -- no matter what stage we are at in our IF struggles. So, please don't feel that you have to handle this all on your own...party or not.