Monday, June 11, 2007


First things first: today is the first day of the rest of my life. It is also the first day of my cycle. And also the First Blogaversary of this here collection of IF shit. The coincidence of all three of these events smashing into each other today is unprecedentedly unfathomable. (OMG, to top this all off it is also the birthday of my bestest pal R, whose husband is the orator of the great quote which inspired my title. I am simply beside myself with this awesome twist of fate.)

Enough blab blabbing (though mind you, I've been doing that for a year, and you still come back for more), let's get on with the celebration, people!


You guys can all go out and get yourselves the biggest, fattest slice of dark chocolate cake with whipped cream icing (because if we were all together IRL for a party, that is definately the cake that I would serve to you all), but while you're out doing that, I'm going to be honouring you. Yes, YOU! (And you, and you, and you.) Because there is no way I would be who I am today without you.

Allow us to time travel for a moment. The date: June 12, 2006. The place: ummm... right here.

I wrote my first post (go ahead, reread, it's a quicky!), and received my first comment from Erin, who encouraged me to tell my whole story. And of course I've been following hers. I fond myself admiring her choice to persue adoption after struggling with PCOS and secondary infertility.

I told my IF tale to date, and was offered support from so many of you immediately: Nico, Krista, Heather, Lut, Chicagogirl, Angie, Electriclady, Beth- all of whom are either currently pregnant or have given birth in the past year. And also- Sunnie and GZ who I miss terribly.

I felt like an imposter, but you guys encouraged me to stay. Of course I found that I was not alone, and that I was not crazy, and that I wasn't the only one who hated my body, the medical system, and other people's pregnant bellies. You held my hand through the agozing wait until my first appointment with my RE (and second opinions) which was approximately nine 2WWs!

The agonizing wait led me to do lots of rersearch, and meet lots of you. I found IF comes in many shapes, sizes, ages, factors, uterii, and unexplainable things. I also learned how coo-coo Clomid is. Thank you to Thalia, Manuela, Meg, 'Nilla, Mary Ellen, Jennie, and Jenny.

Then came The C's first semen analysis. Oh, the hilarity of IF was just begining!! But you guys stuck with me. You told me how you went about this process: alone, together, at home, with porn. It was amazing to me that there was a whole group of you out there who were going through the same things as me, when no one in the Real World would talk about it.

Speaking of Real World... I am mistaken. I DID find one wonderful friend who understood it all too well. Over lunch in Toronto one day Shlomit and I confided in each other. I encouraged her to read my blog, and she decided to start her own space to write about her journey. Shlomit, I can't say enough how having you by my side has helped me in the past year. It is amazing to me how I have found my wa to you in the times in my life when I have needed a friend who understands.

Let me talk about a few other women who get where I am coming from in terms of my IF: the PCOS clan. Ornery, Robber Barren and Erin were the first that I discovered. I learned that PCOS came in many guises but the frustration is all the same. And then came Flygirl and Rachel, Canadians, just like me! Oh and Becky and Heather... AND THEN came my monumental post: FUCK YOU PCOS! And as luck would have it, a whole slew of you came pouring into my midst. I met Karen, Elizabeth, Baby Blues, Sharah, Ann, Tipsymarie, K, and Samantha. Whew! Now for anyone out there googling overweight, facial hair, hair loss, big zits, irregular cycles, annovulation, insulin resistance, and infertility: go on- have a field day! These women will tell you all you need to know.

Are there enough hyper links in this post yet? No? You want more? Okee dokke, you got it!

Let's talk about 2 girls who I have the most possibility of meeting one day. Both live in Toronto, and both are incredibly wonderful. I met Reality early on, and have always felt like she and I would be friends if we met IRL. Even through her toughest times (and this past year has dealt her more than her fair share, and then too much more), she has been here. And then I met Sara, who is compassionate as well as spunky, and always says the sweetest things.

There are also women I admire for their blog style. Bea and Ellen: I am always in awe of how wonderfully you write. Then there is Amy- I have never met anyone so open about her IF. Her strenghth and courage are trly inspiring to me. And finally, Gaelen- no one animates IF the way that you do!

And the women whose journeys keep me coming back to check on them: Ellie, S, Adrienne, May, Lunar Dreams, Cathleen, and Christina. Thank you for also coming by to check on me.

This post would not be complete without celebrating Mel. To me, she is the mother to all of us hopeful mothers. Her blog provided me with a safe place to go whether I'm looking for technical (yet layman-like) information, a shoulder to cry on, or a barrel of giggles.

Here's to all of you who I have met in the past year. I wish that we didn't have this common journey that joined us together, but I am ever so thankful that you are here. I want to send a special shout out to you who have conceived and/or given birth in this past year (there are 24 of you!)- you tryly keep my hope alive. It CAN happen. To those who haven't made it there yet, I wish that your journey takes you to a place where you find peace.

Thanks again, to all you fine folks. You have given me what no one else can.


May said...

Happy, happy Blogaversary to you!

And, with all my heart, best wishes and warm thoughts for the next year.

Flygirl said...

Happy Blogaversary to you. Even though the reason we all came together is painful, aren't we all lucky to be part of this community?

Dianne/Flutter said...

Great post and Happy Blogaversary!

Carrie said...

Happy Blogaversary to you too.

I hope it'll be entirely different for you this time next year.

Mary Ellen and Steve said...

Happy Blogaversary!

Heather said...


megan said...

happy blogiversary!

Aurelia said...

Happy Blogaversary!

Somewhat Ordinary said...

Happy Blogaversary to you, Happy Blogaversary to you, Happy Blogaversary dear Ms. C, Happy Blogaversary to you!! Since I'm going to be eating cake in you honor, I'll blow out some candles too and wish that in the coming year we all have a lot to celebrate!

Thanks for the shout out too! Words can not express how inspiring everyone I've met online has been to my journey!

decemberbaby said...

Heyyy, happy blogoversary!!!!

What an awesome tribute to a great community. I'll be here reading you until you become a mom... and beyond!

Thanks for the chocolate cake suggestion. I'll get right on that.

My Reality said...

Ok, when you come over, there will not only be sangria in every flavour you could imagine, but dark chocolate cake with whipped cream icing!

Love this post Ms. C! When will you be here next?

Nico said...

Mmmm, that cake sounds delish. I will eat and drink to your blogaversary, for sure. Although it sucks that it's CD1 too. Grrrrrrrr....

Absolutely fabulous post, I love the blogosphere tribute too!

Samantha said...

Happy Blogaversary!

TeamWinks said...

I feel like I need to raise my glass and say a very cheery "Cheers!" I love this post. I truly shows how connected we all are to each other.

sariel & shlomit said...

Well, Ms. C...HAPPY BLOG-O-VERSARY!!! And may you be writing from a different perspective by this time next year!
This is a great post, btw and you're pretty good in the writing department yourself!

I miss you and I took take great comfort knowing that you know what it is I'm going through!!

Love you, girl!

sharah said...

Happy B-day to you! You were the very first person to comment on my first entry, and I hold you dear to my heart for that. You made me feel so welcome in this little community and I will most definitely have a piece of chocolate cake in your honor :)

The Oneliner (Christina) said...

happy anniversary. you certainly add to the blogosphere.

i miss GZ, too.

K said...

Oh Ms. C! I wish a successful and peaceful (as possible) rest of the journey for you too! Thanks for the shout-out, and please know that I feel exactly the same way about you...thank you for your humor, your comiseration, your empathy, and inspiration. Happy Blogaversary!!

mandolyn said...

Happy Belated Blogaversary!


kugey said...

I am going to hold you to that chocolate cake thing since I will see you IRL!!!

Happy Blogaversary.

I am glad you started this blog (even though I have no honorable mention) Because I am not one of those who knows anything about what you are going through, I think it's great that I can read it here and understand a little bit more.

Matthew M. F. Miller said...

Happy Blogaversary!!

Keep up the great writing.

ellie said...

happy blogaversary to you! it is nice that we can share and connect-- I'd be lost without the community.

Geohde said...

I just found you blog, it's nice not to feel so like the only infertile in a sea of fecundity!

Congratulations on your blogaversary.

A said...

Happy Blogaversary!!

I love this post, it just reminds me how lucky we all are to have found this community...thanks for making me remember this, and reminding me that there are so many of us going through all of this together.

Here's to another year in the blogosphere...and hopefully to the next part of the journey for you!

The Town Criers said...

HAPPY BLOGOVERSARY. I am so bummed that I went on holiday and missed the cake. So I will eat it this week. You can never have too much cake.

What a crazy year it has been and what a wonderful post. May this blog stretch and move forward in this upcoming year to include many happy times.

Rachel said...

Happy Blogaversary to you!!

Tina said...

Happy Blogaversary to you! It is a milestone to reach - but one of wonderful support!