Wednesday, August 22, 2007

'BOUT TIME FOR SOMTHING NEW...

Is there anyone out there still reading? If so, this post is for you. And also for me, cuz it would be nice to have some account of this journey. I have so many little things to talk about. I might as well make a list, or I may never get to everything that I want to say.

1. I have not had any spotting for the last 8 days. (Make that 8 days, 2 hours and 32 minutes. But who's counting?) I see this as a big step forward. BIG. I still hesitate at each wipe, but a little less so as each day goes by. I do realize that since it I had spotting before that it may happen again. But I am getting alot better at not freaking out of late.

2. I had my first OB appointment last Wednesday. The most remarkable thing about it was that I waited for 3 hours. Apparently in these parts that's "normal". I know it's not cool, and for some it may even be cause to look elsewhere for care. I have thought long and hard about this since my positive test, and I really like my doctor, I am comfortable with the hospital in which I will give birth, and I am not so good with change. So I'll be staying with my OB/GYN, who when I initially posted about her I called Dr. Happy-go-lucky. And she is so cheerful, so I will be sticking with that name.

Other than the wait, the appointment was fine. She was thrilled to see me, pregnant and all. She did an internal exam and told me everything felt really "nice". We tried the doppler out-but no cigar. I was very surprised at how little this bothered me. (perhaps because I had just seen the baby 4 days prior, and knew that I would be seeing him again in 4 days!!) She had a good laugh at the number of u/s I've had, but was happy that it was making me feel more confident. We discussed first trimester screening, the 18-20 week scan, and I made an appointment to see he in the middle of September.

3. We went in to our clinic last Saturday for another scan (9 wks). My mom came with us- she was so excited. At first Dr. New was all- here's the heartbeat, everything looks great, you're measuring right on target, etc.. THEN he showed us the baby's little arms and legs. It was truly AMAZING. There is no other word for it!

He also pointed out a sliver of blood at the bottom of the sac. (Not a clot, but a bit of a crescent adjacent to the sac.) I asked him if there was a name for this and he said "no". But told me to continue taking it easy. Which I am. Very much so. Because while he said it's not such a cause for concern, he also told me that "I didn't want to know" what can happen if it got to be a bigger problem. Look I am no embroyonic expert but it sounds a bit to me like placenta previa from what I have read. The only problem with this is that all my reading material points to this occuring in the second trimester, and resolving by the third. So what if it is this, and it's occuring with me at 9 weeks- what does that mean?? (I KNOW, I don't want to KNOW, but i want to know, you know?) SO if you swell internets have any info for me, it would be greatly appreciated.

4. Contrary to how that last paragraph sounded, I am actully not hysterical over this. Really, I'm not. I haven't bled at all, so I am trying to think of myself as "normal".

5. Dr. New doctor smiled at the end of our last appointment and asked me if I would like to have another scan. OF COURSE I said yes! He laughed, and siad it would be his pleasure, but after that I am cut off. I'm happy he gave me a week's warning so I could get a head start on the withdrawl. I am so thankful that he has been so kind over the past weeks. And I am lucky that my RE is still willing to scan me at 10 weeks. (Though a friend was quick to point out that this really is a business that he's running, and at $75 for 10 minutes work it's bad business to say no to me!)

6. Speaking of 10 weeks. TEN WEEKS. Tomorrow. Holy shit. It's still weird to think that I can put me and pregnant in the same sentence. But here we are. As a matter of fact, over the past week or so I am seeing the following equation pop up every so often: ME + PREGNANT = CAUTIOUS EXCITEMENT. I know. Who woulda thunk it.

7. But the infertile in me is as alive as this baby. And as the bits of happiness start to creep in, I find that they are not erasing the past 2+ years of fear, worry, and doubt that my body can do what it's supposed to. I take everyday as a tiny step forward, and pray (in my way) for the best possible outcome.

23 comments:

Flygirl said...

12 weeks was big for me. I felt like I had passed a real hurdle. With each week you'll breathe a little easier. Promise. :)

Nearlydawn said...

I'm right ahead of you, it seems. I'm 11+ wks... It does seem like it gets a little easier with each week. Next week is my big hurdle - I can feel it coming too. I have a perinatal apt at the end of 12 wks... Scared to death, and yet cautiously optimistic!

Natalie said...

I'm so glad that everything seems to be going just fine for you! It must be just so amazing to see those little arms and legs.

Samantha said...

Glad you stopped spotting. That just must make it a little easier not to freak out each time you use the bathroom! I hope everything else will run as smoothly as possible!

Heather said...

I'm so glad it is going better than it was.

Also, my gyn is ALWAYS running late which I HATE, but I love him - so I always call before my appointment to see if he is on time or not and tell the receptionist that I will be in at whatever time...like if my appointment is at 1 but he is two hours late, I go in at two thirty. So I am still early, in case - but I don't have to sit there for three hours - usually I still have to sit and wait but he is worth it.

Ann said...

Only $75 for an u/s! My goodness, are you lucky. Mine are upwards of $250--and that's with the insurance company's discount.

As you know, I'm right there with you about trying to take it easy, and trying to be cautiously optimistic that little minor problems are no big issue. It's just a great excuse not to work or work out very hard, right?

Kate said...

Congrats! I hope everything continues to go well.

decemberbaby said...

A 3 hour wait? Holy crap! I'm glad you like your doc, tho.

Congrats on getting to 10 weeks! It's just a hop, skip, and jump away from 20, you know :-)

Heather said...

Congratulations on 10 weeks!! I hope your 10 week scan goes just as smoothly as your 9 week scan and that with every passing week you loose a little more of that fear and gain a little more excitement.

Somewhat Ordinary said...

Wow, I thought a 45 minute wait was bad! Hope things continue to go well and hopefully that little sliver won't really be anything!

Karen said...

what he was showing you was probably not a placenta previa. A placenta previa is when the placent covers the cervix completely or partially, and it almost always resolves itself by the second trimester in singleton pregnancies. I think I MIGHT know what he might have been suggesting, and it's also not a big deal, but if I tell you what I think it is, I'm afraid you might start googling and freaking yourself out. So promise not to do that, okay?

Anyway, it sounds like what he was showing you was a subchorionic bleed, which is VERY common and NOT a big deal in most cases, particularly if it was small. Basically, it's probably what caused your spotting. It becomes a bigger problem if it's really big and if you start bleeding heavily. It also depends on the position of the bleed. But of course, I am not a doctor. So I could be wrong.

Hooray for 10 weeks!

Thalia said...

As karen said, it's not placenta previa as what he's showing you is not the placenta. At 10 weeks you should be able to see the placenta forming, so you might ask him to show it to you next week when you go. It sounds like a small bleed which should resolve on it's own. Hang in there. Glad to hear it's all looking good.

Geohde said...

The early scans sound like they are going well :)

For what it's worth, you can't really diagnose praevia in the first trimester because the whole uterus is so small, there isn't really too many places it can go.

Good luck.

megan said...

i'm glad to hear that the spotting has stopped. i hope it stays away and that the rest of this pregnancy is uneventful!

My Reality said...

10 weeks means you are 1/4 done already!!

You called the baby "he." Is that just a generic pronoun or do you think it is a boy?

Drowned Girl said...

Just saying hi!

sariel & shlomit said...

ms c....i'm so thrilled for you!!!
wishing you more and more peace as you continue to count the weeks....enjoy your miracle!
peace
shlomit

Kristen said...

I'm glad the spotting is on hiatus. May it never return again.

A 3 hour wait?! That is ridiculous. I am a pretty patient person usually but that would get under my skin for sure.

I'm glad it was all worth it in the end. Seeing how your baby has grown must be so amazing!

es said...

I'm so happy that the bleeding seems to have stopped! I hope that you continue to feel good and not see any more blood for the duration of your pregnancy.

Krista said...

I am so glad to hear that things are going well. I know what it is like to bleed throughout the pregnancy but as you get further along, it won't scare you as much. I too had a little blood in the uterus but no further problems. The only time it is an issue is with abrupted placenta but I think you are too early to worry about that :-).

Cheering you on!

JewishMama said...

Yes, some of us are still reading- and rooting for you!

Hope all is going well. Please give us an update!

The Town Criers said...

Three hours is really not cool.

But not spotting is really cool :-) I'm so glad that things are going well.

Flygirl said...

How are things going girlie??