Wednesday, July 11, 2007

NO CLEVER TITLE

I have been all over the place since yesterday morning. The line on the HPT was so faint that The C and I both were'nt even sure if it was there. We both looked, afraid to say anything, lest the one thought the other was coo-coo. Of course, we both saw, so it did exist. But an hour later when I went to look it was gone. I tried to keep it together. I don't even know how I made it to this morning.

We splurged last night on a box of 2 tests-premuim brand. I was so stressed at 5 this morning, I had worked myself into a headache by 5.30. So I got up and peed. On a stick. Let us examine:


Umm... line definately there. Totally frickin unbelievable. The relief, oh the relief. But also: terrifying. I mean, yes, it's exciting. Like an out of body experience. Like this isn't really happening to ME. I don't get positive tests. I never have.

But obviously this is me. I called my clinic (where I had to ask for a betas, they wouldn't necessarily do one, but I needed something quantitative, you know), and went in this aft for the blood test. Beta at 13dpo is 172. A strong number for a single pregnancy, or possibly twins, said the nurse. Just wow. It's real, and I don't know what to say.

Never mind going through labour and actually being a mother. I am scared shitless of being and staying pregnant. What do I do now?

47 comments:

Carol said...

yahoo! a very strong number!

yeah - what to do now?? that's how I felt - you spend all this time trying and trying, that you forgot to think about what if it actually works?

congratulations!

decemberbaby said...

SQUEEEEEEEEEE!

I'm SO over the moon excited for you! This rocks?

As for what to do now... find a project to keep you busy for the next 8 weeks or so. Something to make you almost forget that you're pregnant. Major renovations worked for me ;-)

decemberbaby said...

I meant "this rocks!"

not "this rocks?"

Flygirl said...

Wonderful numbers!!! This is so exciting that I've got goosebumps.

I was just at the consignment store today and the fact that I walked past the maternity clothes section made me feel a little wistful. I loooooved being pregnant. Enjoy every last minute of it.

gaelen said...

wow!

congratulations!!!!

Krystle said...

Just delurking! Congrats!! :)

ggop said...

How exciting to get blood work confirmation!! I'm so happy for you.
gg

Nearlydawn said...

Woo Hoo!!! YAY!!!

So excited for you!!!

Hoping there are good doubling numbers in your future!

Knock Me Up said...

WOW! Lovely number. I'm so happy for you but certainly understand you'd have some anxiety. Try to stay calm, breathe deeply, yada yada, blah blah blah (you know what I mean. Take care. :)

Geohde said...

What do you do now?

Simple.

Enjoy it.

Congretulations, there's been an awful lot of BFP's around the IF blog traps lately.

Meg said...

ongratulatios, ms. C.

Meg said...

I thought some of the letters on my keypad were a bit stiff - from my comment I know it's true! :S

Carrie said...

That's great news! It is hard to stay calm, isn't it? I mean when you've waited so long for something it is really precious. But that's a good number, a great start. Try to enjoy it!

Who am I? said...

I have been lurking for a while, but can't resist commenting: congratulations, Mrs. C!

Samantha said...

Yay! I think now you get excited and freak out all at once!

Aurelia said...

Congratulations!

Wonderful! Wonderful! Amazing!

Very very happy for you!

Reese said...

I haven't been reading for long but wanted to de-lurk and say woo-hoo! NBHHY! *please stay*

twirl said...

What a gorgeous test! Congrats on a solid beta. The first bit can be tough with all the worry and wait, but try to enjoy it!

Nico said...

172 at 13dpo is fantabulous!

sariel & shlomit said...

Well, like you said, not much more to add since we have shared about 2000 emails in the last 24 hours!!!

I am out of mind with excitement for you and the C. It's really happening!!!!

peace and love,
shlomit

Ann said...

What do you do now? Um, nothing. Seems kind of weird, doesn't it, since you've spent so long doing so many things to get pregnant, that once you do, there's absolutely nothing more you can do. And now I guess you go back to regular life for the time being. I imagine it will be a bit hard, to say the least! Congrats again!

megan said...

congratulations! now -- you jump up and down with happiness then continue to freak right out.... :) distractions are your best bet!

Somewhat Ordinary said...

Darn, I wish I had checked in earlier-better late than never though.

What do you do now? You enjoy this! I feel the exact same way because there is no real way to guarantee we stay pregnant for 9 months so you just gotta go with it. Enjoy this time those first few days are surreal!

I am so happy for you!

Erin said...

That is absolutely WONDERFUL news! I was at 89 at 15dpo with P, so 172 at 13dpo sounds amazingly high to me--that's great! I am hoping that this is really it for you and that you're soon telling us about pregnancy-related things!

The Town Criers said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! Yay! Yay! Yay!

tipsymarie said...

Wow! That is a great number - congratulations!

Dianne/Flutter said...

SO HAPPY FOR YOU! Yeah! Congratulations!

Sassy McSasserson said...

delurking to say CONGRATULATIONS!!

Heather said...

OH YAY!!!! I'm so very excited for you guys!!

That is a really good number...do you want me to keep my fingers crossed for twins or a singleton???

My Reality said...

What a fantastic beta!!!

I am so excited for you that I don't know what to say! Huge congrats ms. C.

My Reality said...

What a fantastic beta!!!

I am so excited for you that I don't know what to say! Huge congrats ms. C.

Karen said...

AWESOME! That's a very strong number! That's fantastic news! Hooray! I'm so happy for you!!!

Natalie said...

Congratulations!!!

Anonymous said...

I am also a lurker! Congratulations! I look forward to hearing all about your pregnancy.
Gina

Hopeful Mother said...

Great number! Thrilled for you!!!

K said...

HURRAYYYYY!!!!! what a gorgeous sight, that positive pee stick. couldn't be happier for you! hope this is the beginning of a very easygoing and uneventful 9 mos!!

Lut C. said...

WOW! That's fantastic!
Those two lines are a most stunning sight. I hope all goes smoothly from here on.

Cynthia said...

Congratulations! :-)

ellie said...

Yipee! Congrats on being pregnant. Yeah, I know what you mean about the staying pregnant part-- I am told by others before me that the fear lessens to more time passes-- so just hang out with it all and remember to breathe.

lucky #2 said...

Congrats!!!

In Search of Morning Sickness said...

Holy crap!!!!! I leave for a week and you're PREGNANT! On IUI #3! What a great thing!!!!!!!!!!! I am so amazed and happy for you!!!! I can't address the being & staying pregnant, but please don't stop updating, I love to watch the whole 9 months!

Cibele said...

Congratulations... I am very happy for you

May said...

Congratulations!

Baby Blues said...

Congratulations! It didn't take 3 months but it did take 3 IUIs. I'm so happy for you.

In and Out of Luck said...

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Congratulations!

Stacie said...

Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes

I am here for the book brigade but who cares about that! You have a double line! And a good number!

Whhhoooooottttttttttttt

AshPash said...

Wow, great looking betas! Congratulations!!