Wednesday, July 18, 2007

BETA TWO AND OTHER RELATED ITEMS

Well, I see what one has to do to get comments around here!! Thanks you, all you wonderful folks, thank you. You kind words mean the world to me. I'm so thrilled you came by and left me a personal note. It's great to have you to celebrate with.

So yesterday I went for a second beta (19do). The receptionist and nurse at my clinic basically think I'm neurotic (umm, I wanted proff that I didn't have a dead 4 week baby in me), but they were still happy to indulge me. I asked if they would think that I'm nuts if I wanted to come in again next week, and they said yes, but they would pander to my neuroses. I'm thrilled to have them on my side. So, ya. My beta. 1445. Go ahead, give that one a spin on Betabase. The median value for multiples at 19dpo is in the 1200s. Yup, I'm above that. The C is trying to figure out how we are going to fit 2 cribs in our little bedroom. I say: Let's not count our chickens before they hatch.

I oscillate between crazy elation and ugly dead baby thoughts. As I posted in my previous post I know that looking at furniture and clothes can't kill the baby (who's really still an embryo), but I can't help but think that I'm maybe hoping a bit too much. I also know that PCOS carries a high miscarriage rate, so I can't help but think about that every 10 seconds or so. I don't think that I will stop worrying until I have a real live baby in my arms, hopefully towards the end of March.

Hey Sara, want more info? Let's see... My boobs are killing me. My nipples hurt a bit, but it's the actual boob that is in the most pain. The best way to describe it is that they feel like they are bruised. I'm a triffle worried about the boob situation. On a regular day they are huge, I can't even begin to fathom what they are going to be like soon.

I'm also feeling exhausted. I regularly like to nap in the afternoon (a perk of working from home), but in the past week my napping has gotten to be rediculous. hopefully I will get the second trimester energy spurt (should I get there). And last, yesterday a bit of nausea arrived mid-afternoon. I couldn't decide if it was the nachos that I ate for lunch (not a good choice on any day), but today I feel the same way and all I had was a turkey sandwhich. No vomiting yet, but it feels like my stomach is sitting at the top of my esophogus. (Assvice welcome here.)

I am completely new at this, and though I sound like I'm taking it all in stride I am really really scared. The only IRL people who know (other than Shlomit who read it here) are my aunt and my trainer (who I felt I had to tell for medical reasons). Today as I said the p-word to my trainer I realized it was the first time that I have said it out loud in relation to me, and it pretty much freaked me out. (She was all "Mazel Tov!" and I was all "Umm ya.")

I don't know when and how this is going to feel real. For now I'm going to concentrate getting through dinner with my granparents without spewing at the table.

24 comments:

Somewhat Ordinary said...

Because of my beta (2688 20dpo) my husband is also convinced it is twins!

I have moments where it feels real, but for the most part it just seems like I drank too much the night before. I think it will feel a little more real when you get your first ultrasound and even more real when you start to show. Until you have "hard evidence" I think it feels more like an idea!

Hope you make it through dinner-it is getting increasingly tougher for me.

carrie said...

Yay about the awesome second beta! What worked for me with the nausea was eating a bag of Smartfood (cheesy popcorn) - no idea why that helped, but I ate it every day. And I don't know when it starts to feel real. Now, at almost 16 weeks, I feel more comfortable telling people that I am pregnant, but since I'm still not really showing (though it does look like I've acquired a nice potbelly) it still doesn't really feel real. I keep waiting for it! It feels ridiculous sometimes to imagine that there is really truly going to be a baby in January. The only other assvice about the tiredness is that I haven't had that magical burst of energy, but I am no longer taking a nap every day. I still feel tired, but not like I've been drugged. Anyway, I am VERY excited for you and can't wait to hear all about this pregnancy as it progresses!!

tipsymarie said...

That beta is high! Honestly, it sounds like you are in shock, understandable of course.

Those symptoms will probably make it feel real pretty soon!

Geohde said...

My beta's were pretty dran high, and I only had the one in there, but who knows, right?

Can't wait for that first scan!

My Reality said...

Great second beta! I am so happy that things are starting off on the right foot.

When is the first scan?

Chili said...

Great beta! I'm so excited for you!

Flygirl said...

I get so excited every time you do a pregnant post. This is such great news.

sariel & shlomit said...

hey girl!
i just realized that i've been neglecting your blog in favour of emailing you 72 times per day....as you know I have no assvice as i have never been in your wonderful yet fearful situation....but i am here for you 1000%!!!!!!
love you!
peace
shlomit

Ann said...

Yes, I think it's incredibly funny that we're a day apart! Like you, I keep on thinking it's a bad idea to hope too much. We told our parents last night, and every other sentence was along the lines of, "Well, you know there's a good possibility this will amount to nothing." Ah, to be young and naive again!

Kate said...

I still don't feel like it's real, sometimes. Maybe when I have to buy new clothes or something. I know it's really hard not to worry. I am a champ at freaking myself out!

Thalia said...

It is very scary, but also wonderful. Hang in there - and snack regularly, that's the key to not getting nauseated.

Heather said...

Great number!!!!

Lut C. said...

A reassuring beta, that's for sure.

There's no trick that will make you stop worrying, and the fact that it's out of your hands completely doesn't help. I hope you sink into a hormonal haze of slight euphoria to help you through.

Nearlydawn said...

Woo Hoo! Great Betas Batman! So great to hear that all is going very well in there. Your numbers are great. :)

Alison said...

Long time reader... first time commentor. So, so happy for you! This is really great news.

Watson said...

OH WOW WOW WOW....I go and get all behind on my blog reading and you go and get all KNOCKED up!

OMG, I am sooo happy for you, I am just beside myself with elation. I am sending you good thoughts that everything works out great, keep us posted on those awesome Beta numbers!

During my whole 1st trimester, I ate Saltines like they were going out of style and drank copius amounts of ginger ale, and it almost always helped.

Just try not to have an empty stomach! It goes against your intuition when you feel barfy, eating is often the last thing you want to do but trust me, shove some crackers (or protein works for some gals) down the gullet and keep that tummy full.

XOXO

In and Out of Luck said...

Congratulations on the great second beta! Quel bonheur!

A said...

Oh yay! I hadn't stopped by in a while and you went and got a positive HPT and beta in the meantime! Big congrats!!

For me the boob pain went away by the 2nd trimester, and possibly even earlier, it's a bit hard to remember.

The nausea is a tough one -- I found some relief with those sea bands wristband things. They didn't take it away completely but dulled it enough that I could function.

The best advice I ever got about worrying was that I needed to try to be happy every day (hour, minute) that I was still pregnant and everything was apparently still ok. Because not allowing myself to be happy now wouldn't diminish any pain that I would feel later if something did go wrong. So I might as well put the worry on hold until something clearly happened that told me there was a problem. So far that's been working 95% of the time...

Congrats again!

chicklet said...

Wow, very very exciting #'s! As for the cribs, here comes the assvice... my best friend had twins in March and she uses one crib right now cuz they're small enough she says it works great, plus they're used to being together anyway. Good luck, here's hoping the #'s just keep climbing.

sk said...

Macabookaaaaaaaa!!!!
she exclaimed in glee.

Caro said...

yay! I go away on holiday and come back to great news.

TeamWinks said...

Holy crap! I literally teared up when I clicked on your link! I have no clue what to say other than I'm so beyond thrilled, hopeful, excited, nervous, and holy crap!!!!

Ok, way too many exclamation points, but you deserve each and every one of them. I'll do my best to keep on checking in!

mandolyn said...

I'm catching up on my blog reading and OMG I'm so incredibly happy for you!!!

No offense, but I hope that your boobs continue to hurt, that you remain in a constant state of absolute exhaustion, and that you feel nauseous throughout the day. Or at least through the first trimester!

If you can find them, you may want to try ginger Altoids. They helped me relieve that sitting at the top of my espophagus funk. I could only find them at World Market.

Nico said...

How are you? Update, update! Are you having any more betas? When is your first u/s? Enquiring minds want to know! xox.