Saturday, July 03, 2010

THE END?

It's 11dpo, and this morning when I went to the bathroom there was a slight orange-y tinge when I wiped.

Too late for implantation, too early for my period.

At least I'll save money on an hpt- that's an upside, isn't it.

Just... ugh. I really thought this had worked. I'm so naive.

Sadly, I liked this bit of naivete (why don't my accents work??). I just fear becoming that jaded, cynical, angry infertile again. Which I never stopped being, per se, but I do realize that the degree is starting to meter is starting to measure higher again.

A mom friend (a woman I really am only friends with because our kids play together), who swore up and down to me that she was done with her one and only because her husband is such an ass, told me she bought a "baby making monitor" (ovulation monitor) and some lingerie. I'm bitter about this for so many reasons. So many. Just thinking about it now is making my blood boil.

I really don't want to be this way. It's not nice to begrudge people their babies.

3 comments:

Heather said...

I'm so sorry.

I wish I didn't begrudge her either. Truly.

Thinking of you.

tipsymarie said...

I would begrudge her simply because she called it a "baby making monitor".
I never stopped being this way either. I wonder when one does.

Anonymous said...

Not to give false hope... But 11dpo is so so so not too late for implantation bleeding... I promise! Please don't throw in the towel yet.